Self Doubt

It's Tuesday morning, 4 days before the national tournament, and self doubt has shown its head.

"What if I don't make weight?" "What if I didn't practice enough?" "What if, what if, what if, what if. . .

So then I exercise the rational part of my brain. First I answer the questions honestly. If I don't make weight, I'll spar the big guys, if I didn't practice enough, I won't perform my best. . . All in all it is really small potatoes.

Then I remind myself that the tournament is the FAKE goal. I've already accomplished the real goals. I'm in great shape, I know what it takes to lose 20 pounds, my forms are looking better, I've gained self esteem. . .

The tournament is just icing now.